how did july get here so quickly? it doesn't feel like july. at the same time, though, how is it possible that i'm only four months pregnant when it feels like this has been going on for like ten months? i feel so anxious about everything to do with baby. i'm not sure how much of that is first-time mom stuff and how much of it is just me being a weirdo. it feels like i've been pregnant forever even though i've yet to gain even ten pounds and i've yet to feel any baby movement (i hear this should be coming relatively soon). so in the same breath i want to say "i don't even feel pregnant yet!" does my exasperation indicate that i'm not as maternal as i (think i) should be? i hope it's just me feeling baffled because this is all so new.
... morerob & i are thinking about going out tonight. the biggest 4th event here is downtown - headlining: the doobie brothers. oh yay. if rob manages to get off work early enough for us to do anything, i think the much smaller event with the symphony would be much more to our liking. both events will have fireworks displays after, and really, fireworks are fireworks. we should just go outside the city limits and buy our own fireworks and shoot them off.
quick movie notes: mulholland drive was really good. classic david lynch. i think i figured it out - but as with most of his films, i'm not quite sure. it will require several viewings. the others was also good. it was a very beautiful film to watch. i didn't end up watching the man who wasn't there before it was time to take the movies back, so bollocks to me. i'll have to go rent it again. or just buy it. last night i watched hedwig and the angry inch on cable. wow, what a movie. it was just completely fun. i'm mad at myself for not seeing it earlier.
i bought a new chest of drawers from ikea. i got solid wood this time - aspen. my bedside tables are aspen, were flooded, and are just fine. hopefully i'll never be flooded again, but if so, perhaps my chest of drawers will make it through without falling apart this time. so i put that together over the weekend. my bed frame is aspen, too, so my bedroom is all nice & matching now. i got some other stuff done at my house last week, also, so with luck i'll be all moved back home soon. i hope rob can get some time off work this weekend and help me finish moving the rest of my heavy crap over there.
i can't begin to express how much i miss ms. zira. i know that it will get better with time - i guess it always does - but it really just sucks for a while, you know? i miss her running up to see me every morning hoping for some pets and a treat. i always wanted to have a pet bunny and then out of the blue came ms. zira hanging out in the middle of the street, late at night, saying "take me home!" she taught me a lot. i think i might have to make another bunny rescue in the future.