• my poohead went to sleep forever on friday. i'm sad & lonely and also trying to fight that "i should have done more" feeling. it just hurts and it's going to take a while for that to subside. it feels like i've lost a child.
• rob & i got the marriage license today. we can't actually do anything about it for three days, so the plan is to get married on halloween. christina took me shopping last night to help me pick out something to wear over this big belly. after several hours of saying "who in the hell would ever wear this?!", we did manage to find something. i would have been fine wearing my pajamas, but christina & my mother weren't having any of it.
• i gained three more pounds. i went to my gd/nutrition class and have been checking my blood sugar four times a day. so far it hasn't been high once. so bollocks to their diagnosis, i say. i'm going to keep doing what they tell me, though, as i hope they know more about this crap than i do.
• rob's mom is moving down here shortly. she's leaving idaho on the 29th i believe, so if her trip goes ok, she should be here by next weekend.
• it's been raining for like 6 days straight now.
• i'm thinking about turning my big belly into a disco ball for halloween.
• i guess that's it.

it's been a while. the past couple of weeks have been rough. they've now diagnosed me as a gestational diabetic, which is making me nervous. i also have a lot of skepticism about the whole thing, so there's that. i've already signed up for some class next week, so at this point i'm just trying to deal with it and trudge along.

on top of that, the poohead is seriously ill.

well, i'm still alive. lately i've been feeling like crap most of the time. i cannot get used to all this extra weight. i feel like a zeppelin and my feet are always tired. when i went in last week for my checkup, i'd gained 6 pounds. 6 pounds! in 2 1/2 weeks! argh. that's 21 pounds total now. i failed the one hour glucose test (again). oh yay. i'm on a diet starting today, and then i go back in on monday to do the 3 hour one. also, i'm anemic, so i have to start taking daily massive doses of iron. argh again! that's probably part of the reason i've been feeling so worn out. that, the extra weight, and not being able to sleep well because it's nearly impossible to get comfortable in the bed (or anywhere, to be honest).